Celophane

Towards the end of Chicago the musical there is a song called Celophane where the character sings about feeling invisible or like people just see through him with out even thinking about him just like a piece of celophane.
Celophane is the noisy but colorful see-through plastic that is usually used to wrap gift baskets. Usually when you get one of those you tend to concentrate on looking at what the basket contains and not even giving the celophane a second thought. As a mater of fact it becomes more of a bother with all the noise and trouble unwraping it.
If you heard my last album, the last song is called celophane and that is where I got the idea from. See at one point in time I felt over looked, I felt under appreciated and ignored for the most part. That is where my mind set, at least within hip hop, was a couple years ago.
My mind set or at least my life is in a different path and the metaphor for celophane is different. I see it more a being transparent with every one who is around me. Is not about being overlooked but is more about being see through. So... In the spirit of this theme I would like to be transparent with whoever is reading this blog. I suffer from pride. It has been a source of conflict that i have been dealing with. Not sure where it started, or how it came about. I have to keep reminding myself that I am no better than any one else. I don't think that I act like I am but I need to keep my thoughts in check. It's really hard to be humble and it's harder to admit your mistakes/short comings.
''I keep reminding myself that pride comes before the fall'' and i really dread the fall. Hoestly, sometimes I wonder if God has spared me a uge headache by limiting me in music to whee i don't think any more of myself.... Either that or people around me have lie and I just really suck. Regardless I am thankful to God for loving me and helping to to keep grounded.

What is your source of struggle and how are you allowing God to work within that?

Be blessed.