Sit and wait....

I just recently saw a news headline that said ''2.2 million homes up for grabs''.
All I can think to myself is with so many homes up for grab why can one of them be mine?

Let me explain... My wife and I are praying for God to guide us in our living situation. Emily, our daughter was accepted to a school on the upper west side. We are currently living in the Bronx. If you know New York and traffic the you know that the worst thing to do is drive into manhattan in the morning. So we have been praying about getting a place around the new school. The problem is, we wanted to buy a home and with the way things are looking we would just have to hold on for a bit to probably get a good deal. The wrench in the plan is that it will probably have to be in the Bronx because who can really afford to live in Manhattan? Further more if we decide to rent now we will not be able to save up for a house any time soon.

Thus we are praying for God's direction. I have to be honest, this is hard. I was telling my wife that I am okay with whatever the Lord wants as long as I know what it is. The problem is that I don't know what it is and it's making me very anxious. I guess this is just another side of trust. Trusting in God for his perfect timing and blessing. I think back at all the times I've struggle to just do what God wants... Not knowing is even harder.

So if you are one of the two people that read this please pray for Gods' guidance and peace in our lives. That we will be able to sit and wait patiently for His hand to lead us to our promise land.

Until next time...
Be blessed.

Anthony Perez

Funny observations

I had been throwing around the idea of making a list of things that can be pet pevees while riding the train.

Below is my list. In subsequent postings I will expand on them.

Don't you find it funny when:
1. someone stops on the top step of the staircase to catch their breath when there are tons of people behind.

2. someone walks real slow through the platform and is clueless to move over and let people pass them.

3. Someone sitting down waits for you to stand in front of them and waits for you to say excuse so that they can move down so you can sit down.

4. Kids and/or grown ups use the top handrail inside the train to do chin ups.

5. Someone leaves an empty bottle and it continually hits you feet while the train is moving.

6. Someone tries to squeeze themselves into a seat that clearly they don't fit in.

7. When people stand by the door and dont move whileyou are trying to get in or out the train.

I am sure that there are more observations that i might be missing. If you have some please comment on them

Until next time... Be bless.
Anthony Perez

Celophane

Towards the end of Chicago the musical there is a song called Celophane where the character sings about feeling invisible or like people just see through him with out even thinking about him just like a piece of celophane.
Celophane is the noisy but colorful see-through plastic that is usually used to wrap gift baskets. Usually when you get one of those you tend to concentrate on looking at what the basket contains and not even giving the celophane a second thought. As a mater of fact it becomes more of a bother with all the noise and trouble unwraping it.
If you heard my last album, the last song is called celophane and that is where I got the idea from. See at one point in time I felt over looked, I felt under appreciated and ignored for the most part. That is where my mind set, at least within hip hop, was a couple years ago.
My mind set or at least my life is in a different path and the metaphor for celophane is different. I see it more a being transparent with every one who is around me. Is not about being overlooked but is more about being see through. So... In the spirit of this theme I would like to be transparent with whoever is reading this blog. I suffer from pride. It has been a source of conflict that i have been dealing with. Not sure where it started, or how it came about. I have to keep reminding myself that I am no better than any one else. I don't think that I act like I am but I need to keep my thoughts in check. It's really hard to be humble and it's harder to admit your mistakes/short comings.
''I keep reminding myself that pride comes before the fall'' and i really dread the fall. Hoestly, sometimes I wonder if God has spared me a uge headache by limiting me in music to whee i don't think any more of myself.... Either that or people around me have lie and I just really suck. Regardless I am thankful to God for loving me and helping to to keep grounded.

What is your source of struggle and how are you allowing God to work within that?

Be blessed.

Becoming a slave

So I was ridding down the elevator at work on my way to lunch and our elevators have a tv screen that shows the news. Needles to say this caught my eye...

My first thought is why would you want to sell yourself off? Why would you want to be a slave to someone else, someone you don't know. As I kept reading I saw that he auctioned his friends. My first reaction was unbelief. Seriously, his friends? Then it hit me... What right did he have to auction his friends? The interesting thing was that he was disappointed with the amount his life, processions, job and the life of his friends are worth, a mere 384,000. Sad thing is that he sold himself short (pun intended).

I guess in a way this shows the value that people place on life. The value that we put on life will never be enough, but God values us as priceless. We are all priceless to God. Paul put it best when he said that he is a slave to God and only God. He knew that only in God would he find his true worth and we are elevated from a mere slave to a child of God.

This has me asking some tough questions.
- What am I a slave to?
- How did I get to that?
- How can I be free?

The Bible says that the truth shall set you free, so be honest with yourself. Know and recognize where or with what you’ve been slave with. Lastly give over to God and find freedom in him.

Be blessed.